So much for my first day to do what I WANT!!

So my kids are off at there dads... Wasn't that an exciting drop off... His 23 (I'm 24) And wasn't that an exciting drop off on Friday! Guess who didn't show? Yep that's right he sent his 38 YEAR OLD GIRL FRIEND to collect my 2 daughters instead!! Umm im sorry what the hell happened to common courtesy?! Oh sorry I wont be there today im sending my gold digger instead!!! Yep would have been that simple to let me know but know that would be to hard to let me know considering I've never met her only talked on the phone!!! Oh cant wait to see him! On the plus side in person she looks pretty dam unattractive... I expected a pretty blonde chick of that age Lmao not even close!!

My step daughters off at her Grandmas for the weekend.. As my partner and I have her full time its great for a break! First time me and him have EVER had a weekend with NO kids!! We've never actually spent time together without them all... So you think he'd be here right? HAHA NO his off deep sea fishing with his mates husbands... Cheers baby really wanted to spend time with you to! Don't get me wrong im not clingy I don't care if he does his own thing but dam we've never had a DATE! We've never spent time together without kids! You think he'd want to spend time with his Girlfriend?? Like f#@K go fishing while i'm home with all the kids instead! Not when its our ONLY time together!! Might not happen again!

Meanwhile I had so much I wanted to do today, I was going to get up and have a mummy chill day at the markets, visit people... All the things I can never do by myself.. But I had to wake up throwing up in pain! Yay me I just want one freaking day of being ok! Like seriously!! Im ok with the fact my life span could only be another year and if im lucky I may get to grow old haha but that's unlikely..  But do I seriously have to be in pain nearly everyday to the point where I'm passing out here there and every where! Cant drive atm either! I have this random amnesia thing happening where I forget where I am what Im doing.. I completely forget my partners name! And the name of simple house hold objects! A 2km drive turns into 40mins of me trying to figure out where the hell I am and where I'm ment to be going!!!
Specialist appointment tomorrow.. Although they cant stop of slow down whats wrong with me they can give me surgery to help with the other random rare illnesses it causes... YAY! So hopefully when I finally get my 6surgerys in one day... I wont be in half as much pain for now! Yay!
I should probably explain... Basically I have a rare cell condition I got diagnosed with Christmas before last.. Which shuts down my organs one by one... and in the mean time causes a hell of a lot more medical conditions.. Including Endometriosis! Definition of pain! Hence I cant get out of bed today!!! Usually its more like on goes the mascara, eyeliner, lipstick cause I'll be the prettiest dam mess you ever seen! But today its No i'll just pass out cold every time I try and get outa bed! Oh this is so much fun! Not!

Any ways.. Im going to attempt to go and do something before my smelly fishy partner gets home!
Cant wait for my cuddly step daughter to come home today!
Oh btw I NEVER proof read these before I hit post... Cause well that requires time and it really wouldn't be a rant if it was edited...

Peace out readers
Queen B